Sunday, September 12, 2010

The September Issue...

...of this particular blog is a little belated, I'm afraid. Bloggers everywhere are long past this month's fashion magazine issues and busy commenting on NY Fashion week, already looking forward to next summer's trends. I, on the other hand, am left here wondering whether there'll be a next summer for me at all.

Turns out my new doctors no longer think I've got a completely new and curable type of cancer, but rather that I was misdiagnosed back in 2007, and in fact had a way more aggressive and rare type of cancer than I was treated for.  A cancer that now has recurred and spread. While it's been more than a month since I had the last surgery, the tests aren't finished just yet. Apparently, it takes a while for them to be able to conclude with certainity.

In the meantime I've just been so exhausted from everything hospital wise, I needed a blogcation. From the comments on previous posts I see there are awards, challenges and other things that needed replies from me. A response I just lacked the energy to give. I'm sure I've missed out on a lot of interesting or important events going on in your lives that you have been blogging about, and it's going to take me a while to be able to catch up. I'll give it a try, though.

Now, here in Oslo fall has definitely arrived. My summer wardrobe is on it's way back into winter storage, and my fall wardrobe has gradually taken over my closet. All seasons have their charm, this one too. However, I can't seem to shake the feeling of melancholy when I see my summer flowers hanging on for dear life, blooming one last time before it's all gone.

I'm going to miss summer.


  1. I am so, so sorry to hear this.... it must be hard but please try to be positive and hope and pray and look onwards - we will all be behind you and wishing with all our hearts and prayers that the surgery you had was enough and that the tests will be back in a positive light.
    Thinking of you.... Sarah xx

  2. i am so sorry too...
    just know that though we may never meet in person.. you will my in both my thoughts and prayers.... and i agree with the comment above.. please try and stay positive...

    thinking of ya too... please keep us updated..

  3. Oh Sniff! I just wanted to stop by and thank you for the nice comment on my blog today when I read your post. I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. My thoughts are with you as you embark on this scary journey. And if there's a thing or two to know about the blog community is that they are so supportive and will cheer you on every step of the way :)

  4. Thank you for your lovely comments on my blog today and I wanted to say that if you do decide that you would like a little Australian sunshine over the next months, (our Spring has just begun so warm weather hopefully now or warmer from now until at least May next year ) then come on over!!! I really do mean that - there is plenty of room for you to stay with us here in Melbourne.x

  5. Sniff, am sorry to hear that the cancer has spread to other organs - it must be a sad time for you - but even in the darkest winter - the sun comes out - if it's even for a day. Am sure you have an excellent team of specialists around you - don't worry about blog-land - look after You. X

  6. Oh Sniff, this is such sad news. I've been thinking of you quite often throughout the summer (yes, it's a weird thing, knowing people and not knowing them - but since you showed us this new growth I have to admit I was worried.) Wishing you all the energy, optimism and healing power you need, and I hope you can find simple pleasures in the blogging world when you've got the time and energy to visit. xxx

  7. Thank you so much each and every one of you, for your supportive comments. Trust that they all mean a lot to me.

    As it it, the final conclusion are metastasises from carcinosarcoma, a rare and very aggressive BC that affects less than 1% of all BC sufferers. I'm being called in for a consultation with a specialist to get more information, but I've already been told by the surgeon that because of the metastasises, my prognosis is in dire straits. So bad in fact, I'm already working with my lawyer on my will.

    @SE: Thank you so, so much for your kind offer of having me as a guest if I should decide to travel to OZ to escape the Norwegian winter. With certain common interests we seem to share, like flowers, gardens, animals, pretty stuff, nice handbags on so on, I really think that could turn out to be so much fun. I'd love to go, I really do. However until I've spoken to my new doctors, I am at a complete loss as to what happens next and what their plans are for my treatment. But I will come back to you on that, for sure.

  8. Please do - if you can come and you would like to then you are more than welcome - I really mean it - it would be wonderful to have you to stay with us in Austraila. I so, so hope that the news from your new doctors will be positive. It must be hard for you to keep your spirits up in the circumstances and you are very brave. All little things that don't matter really get put into perspective at times like these and it has made me stop and think.....
    THank you for the comments on my blog - thinking of you and hoping, hoping for the best. S xx

  9. This post totally broke my heart :(

    Be strong darling, we are all thinking of you xo